So I've graduated, and although everyone keeps reassuring me that I'm not supposed to know what I want to do, I just have this sense that I should have a better idea than I do. I find lots of things interesting, but the only thing I really want to do is travel. It's frustrating to me to not be able to do that and to also listen to other people talk about their travel experiences and plans for the future and not have any of my own.

I hate to be jealous, but I suppose I am a jealous person sometimes. As much as I try to avoid it. It's not that I want to take away what someone else has, it's just I wish that all of my plans would carry through as smoothly and flawlessly. It's especially frustrating to see someone else with something that I want, and for them not to want it a fraction of how much I want it. But they have it and I don't. And even if they don't want it at all, I can't change it and make it mine.